I think I have told you this before, you really need to let your kids know that you would rather not discuss their father with them. Right now it is not something you can handle.
I want you to listen closely. YOU are not broken. You are not. You are sad and upset and discouraged. But you are not broken. He is.
And he is the only one who can fix him.
As for you, you have been dealing with a lot of tough stuff that really sucks.
But, it is what you do now that matters. And the sooner you can detach from him and his actions, the sooner you start to work on you.
Honey, you cannot change what is right now. But you can change how you deal with it. You can change how you view it.
Use this to propel you forward. Right now, you need to take care of you.
Remember that your children are watching. You want to be able to show them how to navigate through life's hurdles. You want them to see that we get knocked down, but we get back up and do what needs to be done.
You may want him in your life but you dont need him in it. You are a capable, caring, responsible, intelligent woman.
Come on now. You can do this. One moment at a time if need be.
You will be ok. I have no doubt about that at all.