Working on my W's MLC - the saga continues III

[ericmsant2]

Fixer

You appear to be spinning in a cycle of guilt and negativity.

Stop it.

Maybe I'm not as nice of a guy as I thought I was.

"nice" by who's definition. If it is your W's...well then you should ask yourself why you define yourself by HER.

Maybe I've been fooling everyone who reads my posts.

Maybe you have, which is fine. My advice - don't fool YOURSELF. So if you feel that you are not nice or not this...well then change it!

Then maybe I'm just having a nightmare and can't wake up.

Or maybe your not having a nightmare...maybe your really dead right now and all of this is a fuc*ing dream. Just kidding..

Or worst maybe I'm the nicest guy in Hell.

Nah....that would be me. Once again...just kidding..

If I was to take the time and write about my life it would show I'm not an intersting person. It would show how most of the turmoil in my life is with my wife and 24 year old step son. It would also show how much I love my 12 year old daughter.

Maybe if you write out your life you will feel better.

OR
Maybe you will realize that everyone makes mistakes, are never really where they want to be (most are working towards it though) OR

Maybe you will begin to see that YOU and only YOU define and control YOUR life.

Maybe...you will realize that you are comfortable being "not interesting", "being a man that loves his D" or you will realize just how special you really are.

Fixer -
Look dude....whatever you are going through I'm sorry. Life is funny...sometime ya just need to stay still for a while and let life move and happen at it's own pace.

Eric