I am going to be going to your neck of the woods over Thanksgiving, can we meet up?
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
some days i get so lonely. others i a ok. i miss him still.... wondering when it will change. i miss being married and not having to do this single thing. i dont mind it ... but i liked marriage.
my children are getting older.... where will i be in 4 years when my little one is 18 and getting ready to go away? what will become of me?
i get teased at work.. they tell me i am going to be the "cat lady.." the single old lady that lives alone and has tons of cats. first - i am NOT a cat person -- i have 2 dogs (ha!) but the alone part.... i just wonder.
not feeling sad, but i am a bit melancholy.
so much on my mind - so much i want to write -- but it is too soon. too soon for my kids and too soon for me.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
My x is now going to be moving in with another woman and her 9 year old son. Her X is in prison in FL for a double murder of his 3rd wife and her "Friend." My x's new gal was x #2 --- her son is the son of the dude in prison.
This is put me in such a funk. Just so many real deal "Feelings" that I am trying NOT to let hold me, define me but it has been really really hard. As always my heart and mind battle that he is telling her the truth - being sincere and that his life is going to end "happily ever after" where my life is still being poked and changed.
All of the selfishness I just can not believe. No regard for anyone else. I am not even talking about myself. But, my daughter, her feelings... the boy was around nonstop last weekend... sat in between her and her dad... came to her softball game. While her "dad" did nothing to make sure she felt special.. even just for the 2 days he has her (out of hte freakin 4 in the month).
Lots of feelings.. lots of hurt. So very very tired.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Obviously, you need to put as much distance between you and XH as possible. As for your poor daughter, the damage he is doing is his to bear. As she grows older, if she is anything like mine, she won't stint on telling him about it either. That doesn't mean she won't forgive, but she won't forget.
When you project yourself in the future, think of all your good friends and family that has supported you through this rough time. Time heals. I believe that, and it doesn't have to make you the neighborhood 'cat lady'. How about middle aged, looking good, and living life to the fullest. Those things do not require a man, but if you find one to share with, so much the better.
distance. you are so right punkin. trying to release and move forward into my life with hope it has just been very hard. i know it is part of the journey. its just exhausting
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
