Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

My x is now going to be moving in with another woman and her 9 year old son. Her X is in prison in FL for a double murder of his 3rd wife and her "Friend." My x's new gal was x #2 --- her son is the son of the dude in prison.

This is put me in such a funk. Just so many real deal "Feelings" that I am trying NOT to let hold me, define me but it has been really really hard. As always my heart and mind battle that he is telling her the truth - being sincere and that his life is going to end "happily ever after" where my life is still being poked and changed.

All of the selfishness I just can not believe. No regard for anyone else. I am not even talking about myself. But, my daughter, her feelings... the boy was around nonstop last weekend... sat in between her and her dad... came to her softball game. While her "dad" did nothing to make sure she felt special.. even just for the 2 days he has her (out of hte freakin 4 in the month).

Lots of feelings.. lots of hurt. So very very tired.