Dude, I'm one of the crappiest DBers on here, but I just read your sitch and you have GOT to stop arguing against what your wife wants. When my W first dropped the bomb on me that she wanted a D, at first I did all the counter-arguments, etc. Then (before stumbling on DB/DR) I realized:
1) This isn't working, 2) If I D, I will be fine. The world will not end for me. 3) My W wants out and she is unhappy and scared how SHE will be. She needs validation and support.
She was bawling, depressed, shaking with anxiety. I told her calmly, "W, everything will be fine. Regardless of how things turn out, you will be fine, I will be fine, and our kids will be fine. And I promise you that each of us will be happier in the future, however things turn out, than we are today."
It wasn't really a letting go (since I didn't know about letting go), but it was a validation of her feelings, showing her I was not fighting her, and showing her confidence in myself (in all of us). It totally changed the dynamic between us when I told her I was fine with D if it came to that.
In your case:
1) How has it been working for you to try to argue/reason against her not wanting to be M to you? To argue stubbornly against her feelings?
2) If you D, you WILL be fine, whether you ultimately reconcile with W or not. Dude, you WILL be.
3) Your W feels that she wants out. Validate her. Man up and support her.
Me-53 W-49 D22,D18,D15 T-Since-12/2001 Married-9/2004 She Moved Out-5/28/2010 Piecing start-04/2011 Now-together Thread http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2079304