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lol @ exponential growth. Today, esp tonight's been a little tougher than normal for me. On the way home from picking up my son he's talking about one day buying a 4 wheeler and driving it OM's parents house. They have some property and one of those gators he takes the kids on when they've been there.

For some reason it's irking me a little more tonight than normal. I looked around for any triggers, dates I forgot about, etc... but nothing.

Must just be a phase.

It feels more in the line of her driving somewhere to meet him and them doing the whole 'teenage, I'm in love' thing. I guess I'm sitting here thinking she's having this grand old time and I'm just wanting to get through this cr@p she keeps throwing at me.

I just want to be done with it all, in my own place, taking care of the kids and interacting with her even less than we are now.

My phone rang at 3:00 and I saw it was her. I moved the phone because I wasn't going to answer it but I hit one of the buttons that picks it up. She ended up telling me about some mosquito bites around my D's right eye and how they were going to send a bus route change form home that needs to be signed. She said she hadn't gotten around a computer all day so she wanted to call me to let me know.

I didn't say anything. As soon as she was done I just waited. There was silence for a little while so I assumed she was done. I just said, ok, I'll talk to you later and got off.

It was something she could have just sent a text on and I wish she would just do that. Nothing time sensitive.

Just feeling a bit on the down side right now. I know it will pass, but I'm still susceptible to theses small waves.