First day of getting my head on straight and my head outa my a!!. I work 3rd shift and have been waking up at noon. She comes home then to put baby down and get ready for work. She has stopped texting me unless about kids. I saw she was watching TV and listening to her iPhone headphones. She looked upset, but I just said, "oh I didn't know you were home" she didn't say a word... I got in the shower. Tried to appear happy, smiling and kissing baby after shower (that was real happiness). I got dressed and as I was leaving seamed rude to just go without a word so I smiled sorta and waved my hand as if to say goodbye. Went ate lunch now sitting by park listening to music, feel good I guess, this is challenging. BTW and I know this is a ways away if it ever happens, but what if she pulls her regular, we can date crap. She usually does that to pull me neat then kicks the holy crap outa me when I've let my guard down... What should I say? I need time? I need to reevaluate what "I" want out of this relationship. And decline any date type stuff?
