Journalling: The "handyman" came over yesterday. He said all the right things of course--more than all the right things. I couldn't let go of his hands...
I asked him if he was crazy. I asked him if he was impulsive normally. I asked him so many things, but in the end, what do you believe? From someone that you've known a few years but really only a few days??
He fixed my stove, the lights in the barn, and will come over and finish the baseboards. He said he would be there if I needed him. I must have said over and over "how did this happen?" I asked him if I had ever behaved inappropriately? He said "Never."
He was sweet, he was kind, he was complimentary. He was a friend. He didn't ask anything from me, and I told him I am NOT available right now. He said if there was any chance for him, he would wait. I told them of course, there may be a chance.
And that was that--he left and if he was gone tomorrow I would just think "weird" and nothing more.
