Realizing how long it'll take to heal a relationship can be daunting, especially when it's natural to validate your progress through physical stuff.
And it surprises me to feel that way because I never used to need this much physical attention or connection. I really was LD for years. I guess with all the changes I've been making emotionally, learning to ask for what I need, speak my mind etc, it's kind of opened up that more physical part of myself. I'm realizing how badly I need it. Which I guess maybe explains why this infatuation I have with this other man still won't go away. I still kind of feel like I'm 'starving' for connection.
Don't be surprised. For most of my marriage I was never a touchy feely guy. Now, it's hugely important. I think it's part of the script we all run on. That and if you've been repressing part of your sexuality, eventually it'll come out. Exercising definitely boosts testosterone in both men and women, so an increase in desire is normal. Plus the fact that we're all seeing validation from our partners, and physical affection is usually a more reliable indicator of how someone feels for us.
