Realizing how long it'll take to heal a relationship can be daunting, especially when it's natural to validate your progress through physical stuff.
And it surprises me to feel that way because I never used to need this much physical attention or connection. I really was LD for years. I guess with all the changes I've been making emotionally, learning to ask for what I need, speak my mind etc, it's kind of opened up that more physical part of myself. I'm realizing how badly I need it. Which I guess maybe explains why this infatuation I have with this other man still won't go away. I still kind of feel like I'm 'starving' for connection.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
