Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Gr8, I don't know anymore. Maybe a D is the only way for me to move on. It's tough for me to just give up and not fight for the M.

Honestly, I never once felt that W cared if she was losing me. She has always been so cold about the M the past 10 months. I think she only had her nice moments when she wanted something or she was going to drop another bomb on me.

I mentioned on my other thread how W cried in our Tuesday conversation that she feels like she just can't win. I told her it's not a matter of winning or losing. I'm not looking to win anything. She asked me how I could ask her to go to counseling to reconcile or out for coffee if I was going to be difficult during the D. I simply said that I want to separate the two. I can let my L handle the D and I would still want to try with her. She asked me why I wanted her back. I said a bunch of reasons and finished with because I love her.

Everytime I feel like I am starting to chip away at her wall she backs way off. Makes me wonder if some of her family and friends influence her.