I tried, I changed, but still am getting divorced!

[newmama]

Okey dokey...this is one of those periods where I am just existing. BUT S was able to point to his tummy, head, foot, and nose when I asked him last night!!!! I have been waiting for this milestone because it is definitely proof that our babies are learning our language! I ALMOST texted stbxh to tell him but then I thought..."screw it. He wasn't here to witness it. HIS choice." However, I did tell him when he dropped S off tonight and he looked proud. he said "he's so smart!" Now I love my boy and want him to be smart, but I also know this is just a normal milestone! So I was more "relieved" that he was hitting his milestones....I just want him to not struggle in life and average is where I am aiming...heck if he is below average, I will know how to help him, too. Just don't want to be a parent "in denial" because I have seen parents delay getting help for their kids due to denial. Of course I understand why! I am not saying they are bad parents! Just that after I have worked with special needs kids,I see the huge gains they make when they seek help early on. I promised myself to be "wide awake" about my child's ability. If he shows signs of struggling, etc. I will be proactive!

THE BOY got suspended again today...3rd time in 4 weeks. I guess when we were going back to our desks from the carpet area, he pulled another kid's hair. I didn't see it. Now before you think "what? why would he get suspended for that, even though it is wrong!" ( I thought that when I found out) The victim was at the carpet, sobbing so hard that he couldn't tell me what happened. I heard "hair..." (and he speaks another language). I just know the difference between overreacting vs. being genuinely shaken up and hurt. I called the office and the secretary came to get him (the secretaries often come and get the kids because the principal, counselor and student supervisor are dealing with other crises in the building). Well, I sent the victim to the office to get TLC and later found out that THE BOY was suspended due to the purposeful, aggressive nature of the act. He also admitted to it, was not remorseful.

I felt kind of bad that I didn't anticipate that he would do it so that I could stay by him until all kids went back to their desks! (transition times are when kids often get into trouble) I will do that tomorrow, obviously. I ALSO felt bad for the mom, because she had to leave work to come and get him. I think the administration is creating a paper trail to show this is environment is not suitable for him. I have a meeting on Monday.

I am crossing my fingers and hoping that I won't have to work this weekend... I was so SPENT today at 3:15 that I just wanted to veg out with a margarita (or 3) in my PJs. Instead I stayed at work a little longer to do some odds and ends and prepare for (our) presentation next Tuesday. I chatted with another teacher about this and that...we were all FRIED!!!

Here is something- she doesn't GET it that I can't go to Happy Hours on Fridays usually. I swear, she is thinking "just get a babysitter" but she doesn't realize that I don't get quality time with my son when I am working and I have to do the rest on my own! It is just a different world. She did say her H was going on a work trip for 2 weeks so she would be a single mom to her 10 month old. I said "it is so hard!" she said "yeah! I have to come home, make dinner for him AND me, and give him a bath and put him to bed...all by myself! but maybe I can stay with my mom and dad for those 2 weeks so they can help."