After being seperated for 8 months... H is committed to making us work...
I have been through the most heart-wrenching, emotionally crushing rollercoaster ride of my life... truth is, when I first came to DB.com, i wasnt sure what to expect... but i found fabulous friends along the way, support from peers that fully understand the pain i felt when H dropped the bomb on me... and now, 8 months later, i can breathe again... not because H is saying and doing all the things I wished for... i started to breathe on my own months before that... when I found stregnth to live my life... and learned to pick up the peices and take care of myself and live life for myself. I also have to give all the credit in the world to my angel baby... my son! I found my stregnth in the eyes of my boy... the moment he was born and they placed him in my arms, I started to live again...
Tomorrow night I am going on a "date" with H. WOW! I can't believe I am writing this! hahahahahahahahaha H asked me on a date!
To quickly recap: M 31 H 32 S 10 weeks old Together 12 years/Married 5 ILYBINILWY Jan 1, 2010 H filed for D March 1, 2010 (this was the turning point in our relationship-strange, but true) H wants to R and go to MC September 2010
Today... taking baby steps... DATING MY H... learning to fall in love with each other all over again...
Am I scared... sort of... Am I angry... sometimes... Can I forgive... Sure... Can I forget... will try... What I do know is that I know we have what it takes... I felt this way all along... found out now that H felt this months ago... just tried to fight the feelings... Do I love him... YES... Am I in Love with him... Absolutely... Will things ever be the same... No... They will be Better than before! Am I ready for the hard work... and MC and the long road of R... Bring it on!!!
So now I think... how lucky am I... to fall in love with my H... all over again!
