Sorry you are here ris. Yours has to be one of the toughest situations on here since your R has barely made it out of the gate and you're separated by so much distance. Plus his depression, possible PTSD, etc.
Your response was a bit emotional, but nothing too clingy in there.
What would you gain by asking him his reasons/suspicions? He either wouldn't answer you, give you a bunch of BS, or might tell you the truth. 2 of the 3 options don't work remotely in your favor. And it's pursuing behavior which is unattractive and insecure.
I also agree that cutting back contact is good at this time. It'll be good for your mental health, and give him time to miss you.
I didn't find anything in your threads about whether you've actually read DB or DR? I see that you've been browsing the forums, but that's not nearly the same as reading one/both of Michele's books.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2