I can do that, and thanks for the advice. Its kinda hard to fully forgive, because it sort of demasculates me to be in her presense. You see, I feel I get treated like the non-sexual male friend. So I leave her feeling weakened.
We currently live in two different apartments. While the isolation protects my "masculinity"... Its basically costing me over $1000 a month to live lie this and its been over a year. Not cheap, when all my needs can be met at home with a loving and supportive wife.
So you understand the madness, you think about the pain, the time, the money, and the fact you are keeping yourself out of other good potentially situations.
I can move on forgiving her in her short sightedness, and reacting off of emotion not knowing what she is giving up, nor what she was playing with.
I'm enjoying my life, and will be enjoying it more in the future.
I hope all of you guys situations workout for you, and if it doesn't you find in yourself what you need to move on and have a good life again.
