Hon I know it hurts but to focus on it just causes you to stay in pain and stuck. It is done. Please let go. You will feel so much better when you throw that darn rope as far away as possible.
I like Kerry's pledge. You might just want to add:
"And to get up and continue to move on (and improve) my own life"
Hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory