Thanks everyone for you replies.
Just a couple self awareness observations.
I feel very suspicious of all this attention he is paying to me by the texting.

I am having constant dreams where all I do is chew his ass out about what he has done.

I am having trouble sleeping now.

Me: 46 H:44
Together: 25 years
Married: 20 years
Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07
OW: EA began 2005
PA began end of 2006
3 children,20, 16, 6
ex asked for forgiveness
01/16/11