WAW Using God III

[pigskin]

Yep, it is quiet Spinfree. Pretty much business as usual.

Had a call with my lawyer last week and he should have my papers ready this week. I really want to get all this done before the holidays.

W and I had another long chat prior to her leaving. Amazing how often the same old same old gets brought up, but I just roll with it. Her tone is different now, but I've gone past putting any faith in it anymore.

I just try to listen and validate. I told her I was concerned with all the stress on her. How it must be rough with 3 school age kids in a one bedroom apartment. She said in a kind of irritated voice "You have no idea, so don't even say that. It SUCKS! I HATE IT!"

Don't remember how, but that led to a discussion of the stupidity of it all. It also led to her talking about small acts of kindness she has done recently for me, in response to me telling her I've seen nothing on her end to make me believe reconciliation is possible.

I told her that I was planning to have the legal paperwork ready for her return, and that I did not want to have any delays dragging this out through the holidays.

Before leaving for the airport, she gave me a long hug and began tearing up. Then a long kiss on the lips. I gave her a small memento to remind her of me while she was gone.

If you ask me what I expect when she returns, I would say I expect her to make some sort of preemptive move to delay the divorce. I don't know what makes me think that; it is just a gut feel.