2x4s now please. And quickly. The man I had a stupid crush on for years is back in my thoughts because I found out he'll be at a function I'm going to this weekend. NO I'm not going to act on it - there will be enough people there that I won't even have to go near him. My H will be there too. This guy doesn't even know I exist anyways. I had a stupid couple dreams about him a few weeks back and now I catch myself thinking about him again. D&mn it d&mn it. Why won't my H touch me??! Why won't he ML to me?? Since we got back from holidays, it's been all of twice, both initiated by me. Of for gods sakes. I'm not blaming him for my feelings and thoughts, just so bloody tired of not being desired by him and having weeks where we connect and then weeks of... absolutely bloody nothing. This is stupid. Maybe I just need some sleep. How do I get this bloody infatuation out of my head? I thought I'd kicked this. Auuugh.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
