I appreciate the reminder cpc, I hope i will be able to handle these situations better going forward.
Well Sandi, I make sure my children know that both mommy and daddy love them. I tell them everyday. Grandma saved me from having to write those letters. I do school work, if they want to write mom a letter of make her a picture, they go downstairs and spend time with Grandma. I am lucky for that support.
The school Principle and teachers do know, my children have an open door available any time they need it. The oldest has used it twice so far this year. the board of education does have a child physcologist on staff and they have arranged an hour each week for my oldest until we get through the waiting list from our family dr. That was a hugh load off of my mind today.
Things have not always been good between me and my oldest (stepson). He idolized his father and him and i would get into so pretty nasty situations. The funny thing is, since my wife and his mother left, him and i have never been closer. I hug him and yes I hug him in public, and he doesnt care, pretty proud of him for that. We talk and text every day. We kinda just looked at each oter and called a truce and we talked about everything. It was like WOW for me, i had missed out on so much up to this point. I love being a full time dad. I love cooking for them and just the interaction in the kitchen, with the gossip, whos doing what, even talking to me. Their friends are always at my house. Which for me is great, always know where my kids are. Who would have thought that i would get a positive out of something so negative.
I did lose 10 lbs in a week. I have been averaging less, but this week i was a little more stressed and pushed that much harder at the gym. I am eating more then ever before, and i do see my dr. every 2 weeks to make sure i am on tarket for our agreed upon goals.
I 6 months into this nightmare, and just from the last few days on here and reading others stories, i know i can become the man i need to be for me, and if she decides to join me so be it. that being said, im sure i will screw up along this journey many more times.
