How should I handle MLC direct lying?

[amg2]

. Divorced or standing, I would be in the same place right now. I can D anytime.

I think that part of my current "situation" is that this was true for me, until recently. I'm not sure it's true any more, and it now feels like I'm holding vigil. I'm no longer willing to make choices (i.e. being single) based on a marriage that doesn't exist. And I won't disrespect my marriage by seeing people while we're married so at some point...something must change. I certainly don't need to run out and get married again or something, but I have been and am doing my "inner work" and do feel I'm good relationship material, and it would be nice to have someone to be close to. I no longer NEED that. But I would LIKE that. That is a difference in me since all of the MLC problems started.

Thanks