I come form a working class family. Those values of a man always having a job and supporting his family are deeply ingrained in me. Not having a job and being rejected by so many has really taken a toll on me.
Okay, now we are getting someplace. This says a lot to me. It also sounds as if you've endured rejection from other family members or friends? Take that and add to the depression and add to your disease and you have a lot of junk bogging your spirit down.
Have you talked openly to your doctor? Some men find it hard to admit depression, but your doctor needs to know about it. All of this stuff added together is enough to make anyone's self-confidence flush down the toliet. It has to have an affect on your sex drive, don't you think? I won't say you are an odd ball, but I'd say it's rare to see a man who is into all the emotional intimacy and a low sex drive. Maybe it's just rare to hear one admit it? IDK.
It is hard to get all the information into a few posts, so don't get discouraged and give up. It takes time for board members to say all that needs to be said, and time for you to read and digest it. Continue to read the threads here on the forum and you will start to grow. Just don't quit us, okay?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
