How am I doing? I was angry to say the least and guilty for getting angry. Mad at myself for allowing the conversation to even go that far. Angry he uses my Faith against me each and every chance he gets. The greed/Pastor comment just about brought me to my knees.
I almost want to hate him because that is so much easier and so much less exasperating.
I get confused when dealing with him, because I believed every word he ever uttered for so long, now I still stop and question if he is right...
Am I greedy for asking for what is fair by law? Am I a dumbass? (as he so nicely called me) Is it really my fault that my son won't speak to me? Just nothing but more questions and really no answers.
I saved the texts and sent an email to my lawyer to see what happens next.
His Mother still wants me to wait and see what he does...She doesn't think he will follow through and she still believes he doesn't want a divorce, that eventually we will make it through this together.
I used to believe that, now I don't think I want that anymore.
I don't think, to be quite honest that I can be with a man who can treat me so badly...A man who refuses to see his child just because I won't sign his crappy D offer.
I have no idea who this person is anymore but I damn sure don't want to married to him. (Excuse my language)
Luv ~ I was highly insulted and my friend, I am not going to sign it....Even if I have to start selling body parts off to fight him, so be it.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
