I guess the thing is that I know that if I give H an ultimatum then he'll choose ow over me. The bonus is that I can move on even though it's painful and I won't just be waiting on crumbs he decides to throw my way.
On the other hand I enjoy his company and things have been very comfortable lately. I had hoped he would sense that and move away from ow.
When I type it, it sounds pathetic. This feels awful. I think I'm becoming the wife and he's still having an affair.
