Hi Cas- This is so hard to see them come toward you and then back away again...and that is why they say to have no expectations because then you won't be disappointed and hurt. I admit, I am horrible at having no expectations...but Cas, think about it...if you weren't building anticipation of your H moving forward, you might not be bothered by the change in attitude. For now, you really have to live "as if". My H has done touch and goes so many times, I have lost count. Just remind yourself that whatever your H is going through is not about you and that he does care about you, but he is a mess right now and can't figure out which end is up. If the touch and goes bother you too much, keep your distance. You are in control of setting your own boundaries.