I gave up...filed for D

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You are welcome OTMT - still I am sorry about your sitch.

I wanted to come here and post what's happened today. My former husband texts our kids that he is moving to another state...nice huh? Let me not make him out to be such a bad person - he did warn them last week when he saw them ya know? That his position at work may change. I'm sure he knew long before last week about this move. Also he will be taking a significant pay cut. This person has an amazing resume and an MBA but he can't get a job in California where his kids live? I guess his whorefriend lives there or she is moving with him and that's where this is all coming from - remember our big court date is coming next month too. Atty requesting more support, tuition, and legal fees.

All I have to say is I haven't cried this hard in a while. I am so broken hearted for our kids. You should have seen their face when they told me. My boys both shook their head. Here is the second time he will abandon them. I left to pick up my daughter from school. She is especially hurt (as usual) she says to me as she gets in the car, "do you know what's going on with dad? I reply, yeah I know....(trying to keep looking straight ahead so she can't see I had been crying) she says, "so he is moving away just like that?...why is he doing this?" I just told her how sorry I was

When we got home I just locked myself in my room because I couldn't dare face them. I had planned on making a nice dinner but I just couldn't. We are all hurt - each one of us in our own corner. I come out of the room and can see my older son from a distance - I know that face when he is hurting. I walk by my daughter's room and she is on her bedroom floor texting with a frown and playing that damn sad music - ugh I hate that. My younger one drowns himself into his video games - earlier it was his guitar. He says he likes to play the guitar extra loud when he's upset.

I'm not looking for sympathy I just wanted to write this stuff down so I can come back later on and ask myself why did I let this man have so much power over my feelings?

Please pray for me and the kids. We're all just a little tired of being sucker punched.

Luv