D11 performed at Peace Day today. I've gone both of the prior years. This year she wanted me to chaperone and I said yes.
We show up at the park and low and behold there is STBXW. This park is just down the road from her place of employment and yet she couldn't make it the prior two years.
Interesting how she's finding all this time to break away from work now. The girls even said she goes home at lunch sometime to let the dog out. She'd never leave before -- too busy, too dedicated.
Anyway, she left after a couple of minutes and then came back later. D11 had a disappointment. The music director gave her the wrong instructions and she missed her big part in the performance. So she spent the last two hours moping and crying.
The second time STBXW came back she came to sit with me and D11 and I didn't say a word. Still not ready for the "Hi" "Bye" pleasantries.
Luckily, as chaperone I had official duties so I got up and rounded up some girls and then found a place in a separate spot to watch the performance.
Still had some woe-is-me thoughts. Tried to reframe my thinking when I got to D11's school. I am a single dad now. There's nothing that's going to change today or tomorrow. Don't ruin the day for D11. Concentrate on recovering financially, physically and emotionally.
In golf, they are called swing thoughts. For me, they are "life thoughts."
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