I absolutely want to get married again. Just not for a long time...
I have gotten to know myself better than I have in years through this process. I can see looking back how I compromised myself, my values, my plans in order to keep my husband after his first affair 8 years ago. And, look where that got me?
So now that I am reconnecting with myself, I want to share this me, this real me, with my future mate. And I won't settle in a number of areas. Not saying I am looking for perfection, but I know a red flag when I see one, now that the blinders are off.
So at this point, it's verrry casual, sporadic dating for me. Eventually, one of those guys, either someone I have already met or someone I will meet, will turn into something more. I'll know it when I see it.
I love having a "partner in crime", someone to have the fun with...and what I miss from being married is having those common stories and inside jokes. Someday, I will have those again with someone new. So, yeah, I still believe in marriage. I just need to make sure that the next guy I marry, believes in it as much as I do...
