W realized the other day that her car lease is up shotrly and started thinking about the new "toy" to get. She is into sexy power cars.
When she first brought it up on Sunday, I did not react much. I only joked that her current model is not sexy enough and that the last one before still gives me wet dreams. She laughed and asked what I was going to do with mine since my lease runs out in 7 months.
I did not want to remind her the last reference about it which was basically that once my lease is done I am free to move anywhere including to another country. I had told her that in very serious manner.
So I said that it is too far away to think about right now and that I would not know where in my life I would be at that time. I also reminded her that my priority right now is to finance the major heating system replacement as I had promised which ended up being much more than I had budgeted for.
She kept surfing around and showing me all the different models she was thinking of but none of them had all the features that she wanted in one package. It was kind of cute because she was asking for my opinion whereas she clearly did not need it. Her specifications were written in stone and there was only one manufacturer that would be able to meet it.
Last night she came home bubbly and happy. She has gone to see the dealer and test drove her next dream machine. It would have to be special ordered and apparently there is no risk to her until it arrives. I listened validated and also envied.
The burning question I had however was “How the heck are you going to pay for all this when I am no longer supporting half the common household. She is a big girl with her own money and I will not tell her what kind of car to drive, but if I was her, I would not make this kind of purchase while the separation looms over my head.
Hmm, or is she thinking that I was not serious? Is she thinking that she will turn things around for us? Is she ready to return to our lives? How can she be sure that I would just accept it? Is this her strange way to show new “commitment” by tying herself down financially to make her dependent of my share of finances?
This bizarre spiral thinking makes me wonder where she is emotionally. But you know, I really don’t care. We will soon find out.
I decided to ask her out to dinner with a tad more passion than usual. I suggested that since she had such a fun day racing around in her upcoming car, I would treat her for her favorite Indian food (which I hate). She responded, “but you don’t like that stuff.” I said, “but you do and as far as I know no one else has taken you there for a date.” All in smiles off we went.
She enjoyed her food while I was playing around with unidentifiable sauces and flushing them down with Taj Mahal.
We talked cars for awhile and then she asked me if I had stopped at the vet. I was doing shopping during a day and she asked me to pick up dog medicine from the vet. I said yes. She asked “so how much was it”. She knew the answer because I have never gone to the vet to buy anything. I said, “Close to a half of your monthly car payment.” She laughed and said “See, what you learn when you do that for a change”.
I did not realize that I just had found another thing my W did not like – me never paying for the vet bills.
