tired of this

[A_goodman]

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They have spent so much time and energy running from YOU they haven't stopped to realize they are running from themselves. It won't happen tomorrow. It won't happen next week, and it might not even happen this year. But it will. But wether they run again or realize this, you have to let them take their journey. Without you.

I picked this up from another post, but thought it was powerfull on several levels. By itself, it is a pretty insightful comment, but it plays into the thoughts that have been troubling me of late.

When I read that comment, my first thought was "fight-or-flight". To me, this is a statement about one's charachter. i.e. what is someone's initial instinct? Do we turn to face the danger head on, or jump back and start to bolt.

For a long time, I have read countless stories about WA's and my gut feeling (a judgement, I know. Fair or not, we all make them) has always been that the WA , unfortunately, my W included, was a coward by nature. The few WAW's that have come on here excluded. They are still in the game and open themselves up to all of us. That takes courage.

Where does this come from? I think it has a lot to do with a person's mindset. It meshes with the articles about time and outlook on life that have been posted here. I realize that a lot of my outlook has always been optimistic. I've seen challenges as either something that needeed to be overcome or opportunities to achieve something. I'm Not the type-A guy, but rather the happy-go-lucky guy. I'm confident in my ability to meet challenges though and when I join the fight, I pour it on. Strange to be laid back, but competative as hell too. It's just that I don't go looking for problems. When one pops up, I attack it and move on. My W is the direct opposit. She will worry and fret over things that "could" happen. I'd rather face things that "do" happen and not worry about every possible problem. (Not to say I don't prepare, I just don't persevorate sp?). She is the eternal pessimist. I think her "flight" reflex is far stronger than her "fight".

Again, these are differences that I can by nature ignore, but that she has difficulty with. I think when we are in tune, it makes us stronger as we complement each other's strengths. but now it seems like the weaknesses rule the day.

It has been a struggle of late to remain positive and optimistic aboiut R. Me? I'm doing well. But I would really like to succeed here. Mostly for my kids, but I do miss the companionship and affection. AND sandwiches.

But this Character difference is yet another thing that is weighing on my mind. Will it ever be thus? If we fix the R, will I be right back here in a few years? Well, strike that. I'll still be here, but I am never coming back to this place in my life. One of my boundaries going forward, should we put this back together, will be no more of this nonsense. I'm not losing any more time feeling like I did this time.