Update....OK, this is going to be embarassing and I'm really not wanting to "go there" , but...
At the reception Sunday night I got some attention from someone and it really, really surprised me. My H and S went home early to do homework and I stayed because my sister was there and friends and family from out of town.
And the "handyman"--yeah--the one my stepmother is in love with. And apparently, I guess, he likes me. But it could be my truck.lol. He is always telling me how much he likes my truck.
Wow--I just had no idea and I guess I don't know what to think and I need him to fix some stuff here still REGARDLESS. But he told me things, and he kissed me. I let it happen I guess.
So....I called him this a.m. and told him, look--I need you to help me with this house until you move next month (they are all going to North Carolina) and he wanted to come over today, but I said no--tomorrow or Thurs or Friday. And I will be alone with him. And I AM going to not freak out and do anything crazy. I have a broken stove, the lights are out in the barn, the baseboards in the bathroom need to be put on, the screen door needs to be fixed, etc. And he has been my friend! I need him to be THAT!!
My head for many other reasons is spinning. H just brought his lawyer another $2000. We have spent already 12000 in L fees. I was sick about this yesterday!!
And the fact that I have pretty much cheated on my H. I have PRIDED myself on having been able to look him dead in the eye and tell him I haven't cheated on him....
