I feel so much for what you are going through. It is not easy, but a PMA does help a lot. You will make it somehow. I am sure with the strength you show in your posts everything will be okay for you.
I am going to be okay, but it is tough lately. I absolutely have no energy the past week. I guess I have some depression or I am emotionally drained. I just have to keep going the best I can. I sleep alot more these days which is good.
I will do my best to hang in there like you said. It is not over, and I have not given up.
My kids keep me going. They are the reason I continue to fight and have strength.
Thank you for the optimism!
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I am so sorry that I do not posts to you guys lately as much as I would like to. As I mentioned in my last posts, I just have no energy or desire to do much these days.
I am sorry that you had to see someone that looked like the OM. That has got to be very difficult for you. It just seems like certain things set the emotions off. I am sure that would really set my emotions off if I saw someone that looked like the OM in my sitch. I guess I am glad I have never seen him that I know of.
Don't feel bad for feeling sorry for your W. You are a good person, and it just shows how much you loved her.
Everything will work out for you too I am sure. Keep the PMA going.
The little ones do help to keep us happy, and I am thankful for them everyday!
Thanks so much for posting to me!
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Happy Monday You're welcome. I'm always here for you!
There will be better days and days we feel like s--t.
My H has been away from the house (his house, I'm the tenant..lol), for three days visiting his D38...I have been down, thought I 'd feel good having him out of the house. Guess it's making me feel like this is a prelude to what my life will be like after I move out and we are divorced.
BUT, the one thing we can count on is ourselves and we can pick ourselves up when we fall down no matter how many times that is.
You will be fine.As I said, it takes time. I remember going through my first D and how I had highs and lows..and then all of a sudden NO MORE LOWS! Yeah!
It has a been a while. I have been busy with searching for a job, and I believe that some good news will come soon. I have been spending time with the kids too. Lately, I have been sleeping a lot. I guess I needed it. I have been concentrating more and doing great at whatever it is I do. I feel better too. It is great to feel better.
I hope to be closing my apartment harrassment settlement case October 14 of this year. I hope to have a job, a new apartment, a kitty for the kids, and my STBXW fully divorced by the end of the year with court orders for me to be primary parent. I have to keep positive and fight a little longer for me and the kids. I will fight for the kids forever. I plan to always be in their lives at least 50% of the time.
STBXW's mother will be staying with STBXW for 3 months and taking son out of YMCA which I believe is a big mistake. I will bring it up at my hearing on November 2. I do not want her mother taking care of my S when she has bad mouthed me to my D. I will not put up with MIL talking negatively to my kids about me.
I have been trying to put my life in order. It has been a struggle, and it still is, but "I will be okay." I guess it is going to be a battle with the STBXW for years to come, at least until kids are 18 years old.
I am really excited about my life and putting what I cannot control behind and controlling the parts of my life that I am able to.
It is really good to be at a better place. I have setbacks from time to time, but I will do my best when they happen.
I still find I need support here as much as ever, but I have had to focus only on a job and the kids for now.
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