I have 36 hours left of being married. The dissolution hearing is Wed at 11 am. I don't know what to think about it. I'm not happy, I'm not sad or angry, I'm not feeling much of anything.
I've been busy scanning the early, pre-digital camera pics of the kids and family. That wasn't fun. Now I'm working on scanning the old tax returns. That's even less fun. But at least we'll each have a set of old financial records and a complete set of pictures.
Finances are still in a bind. Stbx won't clue me in on when he intends to make good on the settlement. He has 9 months to do so, but I was hoping he might have an idea so I can budget accordingly. Whatever. I'll manage.
Hindsight- maybe I should have pushed for a full-throttle divorce. I would have been able to get temporary support payments while it was pending. But I just know how vicious he would have been if we had gone that route, and I don't know if I had it in me to fight him. I know this path was easier in that regard, but I haven't decided yet if it was worth it. I know shouldn't bother trying- second-guessing myself won't help anything.
Part of me kinda wishes to know what's going through his mind. Does he miss me at all? Is he happier? I'm not gonna ask though.
