cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

It is ok now here for spouses to take the class together. They actually say to just take the class whenever convenient and if it is NOT ok to take it together to say. Otherwise they don't make a big deal out of it. I actually sat with a divorcing couple who joked together the whole time. There were from what I could tell another 3 couples that were there divorcing, but taking the class together.

I am doing alright today. I have many questions about why. Mostly why did he come home for two weeks a year ago and leave saying he promised he would be back in no more than a month to never come back. Why not even try? I also wish I had a human being I could talk to about my feelings. I am so glad I have this board to use as my journal and help me be so introspective, although I always have been. Right now I am thinking never do all of this again, but I think that is part of the roller coaster as well. Some days I think I may want to try a R and M again, and others I think why bother. I love my life and love my kid and love my family, friends, church, job, house, why tip the boat with another human being? Just thoughts.

I did come home today, mowed, vacuumed, mopped, did laundry (which I will be folding in just a few minutes...two weeks worth), made dinner, cleaned up dinner, and went to a meeting about the resale my sister-in-law leads that I am in charge of. CRAZY! But I think cleaning and getting caught up has really helped my mood. I hate not cleaning and having stuff put away. I can take it for so long then it gets to me. Now that I am caught up, I can spend the rest of the week with S and not feel bad.

It seems like time is flying by more than normal. I can't believe next Friday starts October already. Next week i will be half way done with the first trimester...AAHHH!!! I am just so busy. I don't have a free weekend until....October 16? By then I will need to rake leaves and prepare for winter.

Oh and last thing, my step-sister and family from TN will be moving here next weekend. She is full of drama and her H can't move here yet because they need two incomes and he hasn't found a job here yet so...she is going to bring even more drama because she will expect everyone to watch her kids for her constantly. My nephews are 8 and 6. Not too bad, but the oldest has ausbergers and the youngest has ADHD. They were raised differently than S and my brother's S so they ruin things and don't listen well, etc. Just a handful. I usually have no problems with them, but after working all day and taking care of S, I don't need my nephews every day too or every weekend or anything like that. She is expecting to hang out with family all the time, and we don't do that. We have our separate lives, especially fall-spring. We hang out more in the summer. More fun :-P