Wow, that would be tough to attend that parenting class with H. The only good thing is that now you can be sure that you both heard the same lecture, so if anything was to come up, you could refer to the parenting class (ie "remember when they said --". I don't blame you for the dig though. You've showed a lot of self control not saying a lot of things that could (and maybe even deserve) to be said to him. It's obviously doesn't help the sitch to say it (besides making you feel better for a minute), so it was good that you apologized.
Regarding H taking care of you, I'm a little skeptical on his change, but I hope it is sincere. Obviously you know what is fair for the D settlement, so if his niceness is only to get you to soften up and let him off the hook, it's not going to work! But too, defnitely take care of yourself. If H is willing to help you with the dr, then do it (even if it's just for yourself to satisfy the need of wanting someone else there). You need to make sure it's not something more serious. Hopefully not, but you need to make sure!
I'm sorry you are having these down days but it's great that you are able to be so introspective about the different feelings you are feeling and the fact that you are grieving the loss of your M. Take the time to grieve, but also take the time to do some things for yourself. Forget about the housework right now and spend some extra time playing with S and just doing something fun. Like you said, the M will be over soon, and although it's not what you wanted, you're dealing with what you have been given (a lemon of an H, as I like to say!), and your moving forward with your life!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
