tired of this

[A_goodman]

You know, I am a lucky man in a lot of ways.

You three guys have been by my side all along. It feels like we've grown up together, because in a lot of ways we have. Thank you for your take on this. I think there is probably a good deal of truth in each one.

I am certain that it's partly a psychological defense mechanism. Hell, it's straight out of the WA playbook. They've been hurt, so they make up a bill of goods about us and what rotten bastards we are to make it easier on them.

But I can also see that there are things that have always caused me a pain in the um, backside, about her. If I hadn't been here all along, I'm sure that MY WAS script would be getting polished up and that all the good things would be long lost.

IDU, you are right. It WAS my responsibility to point them out and demand better behavior all along. It's a responsibility that I abbrogated. It got broomed under the door mat that I was. It contributed to a lot of her problems with me, and now, I suppose mine with her.

So, It's probably a combination. Part of it is a twisting of the past to protect myself now. Part of it was a twisting of the present back then to protect myself in the future. Too bad none of it worked.

This new twist has come as an unexpected development. I have been keenly aware of her revision of history. I expected to walk away from this with my own grasp of history firmly rooted in reality. Now I can see how they can be so addled. It's like brain-washing from within.

It's very confusing and humbling to think I might be just as susceptible to this bologna.

And NO Dan; it doesn't really help at all. It still sucks.