I had extreme anxiety and sleep disorder thoughout our dating and M life. This caused intimacy issues b/c I could sleep more than2 hours straight w/o getting up. I slept on the couch most if the time.
No proven affair, 99.9% sure there was none when she left.
I know she did sleep with OM at some point over the separation. After major talk in May W said she wanted a D so I decided to move on and that included seeing other women.
She said today she is attracted to me and wanted to talk about our issues.
I told her she looks unhappy and it's unattractive. I told her I wanted her to be happy. Ask her what makes her happy? She says she doesn't know. I say you need to find what that is and I would be supportive.
Future talks are going to take place.
On the fence now.
I don't know if I can get those feelings back again. We love to have the family back together.
I guess I need to know W wants to work on it for the right reasons. Not just for the kids or not b/c her family is pressuring her.
It has to be because she WANTS to. If I get that feeling maybe we can begin piecing.
So many more obstacles to overcome-My family and friends. I know it's ultimately my decision and those close to me will have to accept my decision.
Bomb 8/09. Brief piecing 12/10. D-2/12 Two incredible kids D9,S6 Leading new life! “Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person we become."
