Back on the boards...but not sure why

[Augtan]

I too have been divorced for over a year now and I still have fantacies of him pounding down our door saying it was all a mistake and that he wants to come home. My 11 yr old dd does too! She wants him to at least move closer to us, he lives 700 miles away. So, I know how you feel! I know my ex is not changed and is still so deep in MLC, but I just want my normal life back and I am sick of people telling me that I have to create my own "normal" now. Look, I was married to him for over 17 years, with him since I was 18 yrs. old, I will always think of my life with him, being married, living in our gorgeous house, going to bed each night together, talking 5 times a day, eating dinner together each night, raising our kids, etc. as my normal life and everything else is just like living in a twilight zone. I never dreamed we would ever be divorced, we had our issues, but they were nothing that wasn't fixable with therapy, DBing and such. He just went into textbook MLC and it was over!!

Hang in there! I haven't been on these boards in months and here I am! No real reason, just missing my married life so much!