Help, ex coming here in 2 days!

[Augtan]

Hi! I have been on here many time, but don't come back to this thread much cause there doesn't seem to be much activity on here. But, I thought I would try, cause this is really the only spot for me anymore. I have been divorced from my XH for over a year, we have been together many times since, which is a long story. He keeps coming out of MLC tunnel for a few months, but then goes back in, this time because of yet another awful woman he met who is complete trash. Anyway, the last time he was out of the tunnel we were together, but things weren't by any means good. He is a lost soul who is looking for anything to make him feel better, drinking, crazy women, whatever doesn't make him feel trapped or tied down, and me and the kids make him feel that way, so he is here for awhile and then runs.

One of our friends told me that he thought my ex would have to hit rock bottom before he would come out of the tunnel to stay and he thought the only way that would happen is if he lost his job. Well, on monday, he lost his job!! So, he has been contacting me quite a bit, as he doesn't know how to handle it alone and I am sure GF is of no support. So, since he has no job and my 17 yr old that lives with him is doing online school, they can come up and visit the other kids who live with me here (we live 700 miles apart!!). We hadn't communicated very much since he went back into the tunnel in June and that was the last time we were "together" too. I did screw up and start lecturing him yesterday on the phone about lying. He and my 17 yr old had lied to me about something and it upset me, so I broke down and told him and then went off on all the other lies and crap. I cried and told him I am just so sick of lying. I did ask him if he misses being a family and having a normal life to which he said "of course I do". I also told him that I don't want him back, don't want to be his wife ever again and I just want him be to the man he was for his kids sake. I don't know whatelse I can want...he is gone, done and over us. I do pray that one day he will figure out what is right and that nothing matters more than his family. He felt that way for 17 years, so I know it is in there! I guess now all I want is a "normal" life again, and to me being divorced will never feel or be normal no matter what anyone says!