Had the kids this weekend and things went pretty well, until Sunday.
I picked-up the kids from school on Friday and they spent time in the afternoon playing game-cube while I made dinner. Fried walleye. It was very good. Also fried some potatoes, made some broccoli and had some fruit for the kids.
Saturday, soccer was rained-out, but the weather improved later in the day and the kids had a friend over. They all played with the neighbor kid for a lot of the day. Made ribs that everyone liked a lot. Worked on organizing the garage and getting stuff out of the way. Friends parents came and got him in the evening and stayed for a couple of drinks.
Sunday, soccer was in the afternoon. Slept in in the morning, watched a little football and grilled chicken for us before the soccer games. It was cold and D wanted to sit in the car during S's game to wait for her game to start. This was the first time that W and I have been together at an event since the separation. It was awkward and pretty hard on me. Started at the first game standing with some friends I know and W came late and sat away from me. She went to talk to D and D came out to sit with her. Later D came to ask me if she could go back to W's with her after the games because she has more stuff to do there. I said ok.
When S's game was over, his friend's dad took them fishing and I went over to watch D's game, which had already started. I didn't know anyone there because D is on a new team this year so I stood kind of behind and next to W. Lots of awkward silence. After the game was over, I joined the boys fishing. I told S that D was staying at W's and he said he would stay and watch football with me. Later, he said he wanted to stay at W's too, because he slept better there. So, both my kids abandoned me the night before my trip to Europe. I won't see them again for a week, but I do have them the night I get back.
I wept alone for a while last night, appreciating the release it gave me, but also cursing W for doing this to us and wondering why this has to happen to me. Went to the bar to see the little blondie and chatted with her a bit while watching football.
Packed for my trip this morning and am flying out of Chicago at 6pm today. I am tired because I stayed up too late, but maybe that will help me sleep on the plane and I will be able to adjust to European time more quickly.
Going to Belgium, Netherlands (Amsterdam!) and Germany. Munich for Oktoberfest. Going with some fun friends and we should have a great time. May not hear from me for a while now.
