Still no response from second text. I am not surprised. I called my sister and talked a while and I've had a lot of time to think.
It really doesn't hurt that much that she's with an OM. It really doesn't hurt much that it likely traces back to last summer when she was supposedly still "deciding."
In a way, it's better. It was always hard to wrap my mind around her throwing this all away for nothing. It turns out there was someone else pretty early on.
What hurts is that I feel stuck. She's moved on and I haven't. Financially, I'm still struggling. The OM has been helping around the house and maybe he's helping with the money.
I've been telling myself "It's a marathon not a sprint," but I was thinking that I've had that all wrong. I've been racing with STBXW and that's a bad race to run. Because the only way I win is if she fails. If she thrives no matter how I feel I'll feel like I lost.
The only race I need to run is with myself. It's a marathon and not a sprint when it comes to getting better. I need to relax, take a breath, concentrate on rebuilding my finances and just be ready for what happens next.
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