Sol certainly can if she chooses to but at least from my own experience I can say I was/am VERY vulnerable to a heartbreak.
I hear exactly what you are saying. By that same token, being vulnerable to heartbreak is not an issue for me since I am currently heartbroken. Opening myself up to the possibility of another one on top of this one seems like suicide.
Am a little sentimental today. My weekend has been good but tiring. Another one of my friends got married yesterday. It was a beautiful, small ceremony, very simple. I was thinking, that is 3 friends of mine who have married since D papers got filed/rolling. It made me kind of sad but of course I am happy for everyone and their new futures/life together. We celebrated my parents' bdays and the DJ played both of my wedding songs back to back.
Lab partner and I grabbed a bite to eat between class and lab and he was saying he wanted to know more about me, yada yada. I think he has a little crush. Which is flattering but so not where I'm at. He even texted me later saying "I bet you look beautiful at the wedding" and said he really enjoyed spending time with me.
And all this time I am thinking, my h doesn't even want to be with me and thinking of dating and starting all over again one day with someone else (should that ever happenn) is mentally exhausting.
I am tired of crying. I am tired of feeling depressed. And feeling like a f-ck up failure. I am tired of waking up in bed and looking to H's side of the bed and thinking H will never be in it again. I want to burn that bed and the covers. I don't want to sleep in it anymore. I just want to feel better already.
On the flip side ...at least I am alive and kicking.
