My advice would be to do whatever you need to do to stay in an emotionally healthy place. If that means going dark, then go dark. Period. This is about you for you, and about him for him. If he is rethinking, if he is not .... doesn't truly matter, because you need to take care of you.
You can do this, you know you can ... you already have.
(((hugs))) Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc