H came here to help D with study at 5am as promised! We've been messaging via skype most nights. I very bravely say that I am happy that we can now chat this way. He replies, "Me too." His last email wishes me a happy weekend and the other day he asked how my day at work went. That was a first in a long time. So things continue on slowly, slowly. However.........
A few weeks ago H told D and I about the possibility of him having a short term boarder. No more was said. Last night he tells me boarder is arriving in a few minutes. D didn't know either. Technically it's not our business....
BIL and SIL are here. No mention from H of D and/or I catching up with them and I will not ask. Not really a big deal.
I receive an email asking to change our regular dinner night but with no reason given. Automatically, I feel myself get annoyed. Automatically, I think D and I are being dumped for ow. I know there could be lots of other feasible explanations. I just wish he would be more transparent to help me learn to trust. I wonder how entrenched ow is. She doesn't seem to be at all. Do I dare ask? Do I tell him I need him to be more transparent to help me trust? Is it just my problem? Without some kind of explanation I feel like a restaurant...just calling to change the booking but I'm still pleased he wants to come.
I'm not sitting too comfortably atm as I know I care too much about what he's up to. No contact allowed me to get on with my life irrespective of what he was up to. I think we've moved too far for the detachment of NC but not quite far enough. Frustrated!!
