No news thus far today. Just doing my own thing - GAL. I'll probably call my S4 within the next 30 minutes. Going to have to speak to W. I don't want to at all really.
I'm sure she'll pick up on that. She's uber-sensitive like that. I figure that if she gives me the whole, "Are you angry at me? What's wrong" speech I will just say:
"I'm not angry and nothing is wrong. I'm actually doing pretty good right now. I need some space right now. I have a lot to think about."
... and leave it at that.
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
Nothing new to report. I missed 2 calls from S4. Called back, spoke to S4 for a few minutes. W got on the phone and was telling S4 to go to bed so she could talk to me. She got on the phone, she asked about my golf tournament. Said it was going good, having fun. Asked her if she had a good day. She said yes, talked a little about her day.
I then said I had to go and would talk to her soon. She said OK she was going to bed because she didn't feel good (at 8:00pm?). I felt like she was saying that she was going to bed so that she could "one-up" me by saying she didn't want to talk to me later tonight. Whatever, no ILY tonight.
Holding the line...
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
No ILY? stop holding on to the expectation. You post as if you want her to keep pulling you in. For the love of pete, stop doing this to yourself, it is, trust me the hardest thing you will do, but let the f%ck go already. Everyone here even Lotus, who has been your backing with your motives, now says you are in a damaging hurtful relationship with W. FOCUS on your S nothing else. When you post you write as if now your S, is on the back burner, wrong approach, wrong way to look at this. You have argued my input in the past, but look at your posts, really look at them and look at the responses. You dont listen, you do what you want, and reply to the input that serves your purpose, obsessing about your W and letting her work you like a puppet.
Sorry to be so harsh, but as you can probably look over the last few pages you are losing support here. I still respond because I have a manipulating and game playing W, so I can relate, I just feel I am a lot further along in this than you, and you keep running back to the sidelines for comfort.
DSH - I was saying that I was proud of myself for not saying ILY. I wasn't looking for it or wanted it. I was happy that it wasn't said... sorry I wasn't clearer.
Good news everyone - in an attempt to GAL I played a 3 day golf tourney with my dad this weekend.... we won! Beat everyone in our flight by a ton of strokes. It was a lot of fun.
It was good to have my Dad here to keep me distracted from the sitch. He was a good help. I just have to keep up the positive momentum going forward. I've been dark for 3 days so far. And - I won a golf tournament! Yay!
Holding the line as long as I can fellas.
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
Good. Congratulations on the golf tournament! When she starts demanding the "I love you's" tell her that she has rejected you time and again and you are not attracted to her the way she is acting. You can't say that what you feel is love.
If she had stayed longer at Retrouvaille, she would have learned that love is a decision. She has decided that she will not love you. She has told it to you again and again. Since love is a decision, not to love is also is a decision. That is the choice she has made. She can stop saying she loves you when she has clearly decided NOT to love you. She cannot overcome her own decision unless she makes a new, opposite decision. But where she is today, I guarantee you, is decidedly not loving you.
DSH - I was saying that I was proud of myself for not saying ILY. I wasn't looking for it or wanted it. I was happy that it wasn't said... sorry I wasn't clearer.
Good news everyone - in an attempt to GAL I played a 3 day golf tourney with my dad this weekend.... we won! Beat everyone in our flight by a ton of strokes. It was a lot of fun.
It was good to have my Dad here to keep me distracted from the sitch. He was a good help. I just have to keep up the positive momentum going forward. I've been dark for 3 days so far. And - I won a golf tournament! Yay!
Holding the line as long as I can fellas.
That word. You keep using that word. To quote Inigo Montoya, I do not think you know the meaning of that word, dark...
I am sorry to sound so harsh- guess it's my sitch that is making me this way. Once our spouses have walked away, the rules change. Let her go. Your WAW is playing you.DON"T PLAY!!!!
