Well yesterday I changed things. I was much more demostrative publically and things are better. I think I just have this in built hyper sensitivity to anything negative meaning that I'm going to be walked out on again. I don't really mean him specifically, if things stopped with him now it wouldn't be the end of the world, but I just mean it is a general panic in me now that I'll have to work on. I guess at least I'm aware of it.
Last night I went out with the girls from work and got quite trashed. It was lots of fun. When I got back to the hostel he was waiting up to check I was ok so we snuggled on the sofa for a while and then went out for a kebab because I was starving, then we snogged in the park at 3 oçlock in the morning - classy I know lol
On other news, the postcard exh sent me was a picture of the cat and some news of her. He had made it from his iphone. It was quite sweet. It also seems that he is engaged to his girlfriend. What an idiot!
I'm going to look into the tent place, thanks Kerry! I just want this to be a bit of fun really, nothing more at the moment.
