Well, MIL just inserted herself. Called (I ignored) then texted telling me Dan was at a farm sale out of town, could they have kids after school, did i mind, would i tell the office, etc.
I just replied that I had already taken care of it and it was fine.
Not sure if I ever mentioned it but Dan's sometime cattle partner, our mutual friend, Doug, texted me for my birthday last month. We have emailed some since then, I am glad he still wants to be my friend. No need to 'lose custody' of the friendship in the D. He emailed last week wanting to know when I was free to meet up and catch up on things. He is about the only one of Dan's friends who supposedly knows the whole situation (Dan told me last fall when he said he wanted to reconcile, that he had told Doug the situation and Doug said he was stupid for leaving!), so that could be interesting. I would never trash Dan, but I won't lie, either. Besides, I like Doug, his wife, and their kids. They are good people.
Aargh! I have that "all fired up" feeling! The one I used to get, when I had my mojo going.
It's Friday night! I want to be able to call up my guy (Mr. Right, Mr. Right now, whatever!) and head out for the night on some fun adventure...
Instead I am STILL at school working on things for next week. Then I get to go home and clean for an hour before I go to the football game and cheer on our Rams--and watch my little lady dance at half time.
Then again, I am running on 5 hours sleep. Maybe I am just slap happy...
Well I just got home from the football game. We lost, 0-35.
Sydney looked so adorable in her little outfit for the dance performance! The pictures aren't great bc of the lighting down by the field, but so be it. Some of her smiley poses were a little to reminiscent of Carol Channing. Maybe it was the bright "lippy" she asked me to put on her!
My mom and dad came to my house and walked to the game with me. Mom was nervous about Dan and his parents being there for some reason. I reassured her that everbody gets along, she could relax. In fact, I missed a call from Dan asking me about the outfit I had sent for Sydney, making sure he had it right. Then he texted me telling me where they were sitting so we could find them. Sydney and Nathan were thrilled that we were in the same place together. And, that is what counts.
Now, time to relax after being up till 1:30 last night!! A good twelve hour day awaits tomorrow, lots of house catch-up to do!!
Kalni needs to teach me how she learned to not let her H 'touch' her when she was still protecting her heart...
All I can do is cry, and cry.
I was texting w/Dan's cattle friend Doug this morning. Actually considering investing in his cows. The way it would work is I would buy a cow and he would keep it, feed it, breed it, etc. Then every time a baby is born and sold I get a cut of the profit. Once the cow is at the end of the road, I get a cut of its market price, too.
Well Dan found out and got super pissed. Wanted to know wtf since I 'never supported him' on his cows. Should have just ignored him entirely...
Instead I replied back that I would have preferred investing in his cows (STUPID ME) since they were right here, but did not think he would want that.
He went off on me, saying he already travels 100 days a year to give me $$, why would he want to have to take care of cows for me, too, what was I trying to do. I was honest and said I was just trying to be supportive but absolutely never mind. He totally took it the wrong way.
Well then he told me to go to hell, and that his cattle friend could go to hell, too.
I did not reply. Then two hours later he texts that he is taking kids to Pizza Machine? And then texted that I could go buy friend's cows.
Well an hour after that, just now, he called my house. I answered bc usually it is the kids calling on his phone. I answer and he starts chewing me out asking why I did not tell him there was a birthday party tomorrow for some cousins, if I wanted kids during his day I needed to let him know, etc etc.
I replied that he has known about the party since Wednesday bc the kids told him and he told me that day that he wanted to know the plan. So I had told him on Weds that if they were coming they should come by three. So I said "Not sure why you are complaining that I didn't tell you ahead of time when you have already known for three days, clearly you just want to be angry at me."
So then he goes into how I could possibly think he wanted me to invest in him, that my little "stunt" of talking to his cattle friend just about pushed him over the edge, etc etc.
Then he said that was the whole point of his text two weeks ago telling me about his "Perfect Morning"--that he could have had that if he had been able to move to the the farm when he wanted to. (So know I know what that was all about.)
I got sucked in at that point. I said, you have decided that I was not supportive of you, no amount of my actions will change your mind. Clearly I would not have offered to invest in your cattle at this point if I didn't support you. He said it is sure nice you have money to invest now because I am broke. I said well if you hadn't divided our family up you would not be broke...
Then he says, when are we going to talk about that thing about having other people around the kids.
I said, well I asked you about it two months ago and you never answered me so you tell me. He said well we need to talk about it so pick a time. I said ok, are you guys moving in together or getting married, is that the situation?
He said, no, she cannot move. I said, she can't move, she won't move, or what. He said, "She is not moving it is not going to happen." So I said, then you guys are just going to keep seeing each other sporadically for years? He said, yeah we will have to.
I said "Ok, but if she is spending time with you and the kids they will know what is going on."
He said, "As far as they will ever know we are just friends."
Seriously??? I said, "Yeah but friends are not overnight guests so they will figure it out."
He says, "That is not happening there will be no overnight visits with the kids around. As far as they need to know she is a friend from work."
I cannot believe they are going to be content with a long distance relationship for the next several years, granted they have been doing it already...
I think of course the kids will figure it out, how would they not figure it out. I highly doubt they can avoid flirting and physical contact in front of the kids. Besides, once he does not owe me alimony, or her son is old enough she can move, or whatever, are they going to believe that they just suddenly became a couple??
And besides, if she is not moving up here to live together, I don't see why they can't get together the 55% of the time he is not with his kids...
I really do not know how I am going to pull off hearing the kids talk about doing things with Stephanie and not telling them the truth. Ugh, ugh, ugh.......I hate this. I guess I need some intense in patient therapy to stop having any emotions about it.
After all of that, he just texted me a picture of Nathan smiling and a note that said, "Another one gone" bc Nathan apparently lost his other front tooth today...
Sorry I cannot respond to him unless it is an emergency anymore. Call me a wuss or whatever but I am not going to respond and act like everything is just peachy.
