Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

Hi Bridge.

I guess there's not any room for any other feelings right now. I've had opportunities to meet others and date, but I didn't want to, at all, until I was legally not married anymore. I do trust myself...I know my heart.

It's hard for me to think about another relationship right now. Period.

"We are not all your XW." God I hope not.


ps - there was infidelity involved, on her part, in addition to everything else I've shared on these boards. Haven't mentioned it until now, since the legal aspects of things have come to a close, but I've been aware of it since before she ever left. I was in the past what I've shared on these boards, but there was more to it than just that. I believe that she used the way that I was as an excuse, or justification, to do what she was doing.
I can remember how distant and angry she became all of a sudden...because she was already cheating. She projected anger and distance when she resented my positive changes...now that she had done something that violated her own previous moral code. It's as if she was saying, "I am livid that you made me do something so reprehensible, and only now are you making positive changes! If you had done these things sooner, I wouldn't have had to cheat on you!"
Fact is, I'm not responsible for her cheating...she is responsible for that all on her own.