When I really settle into what I wrote above as it relates to my life there is a peace which comes over me. A knowing, where you don't know where the knowing came from but it's just there. Almost like an intuitive sense.

But when I stop fighting, stop analyzing, stop swimming upstream, resisting what is. Stop trying to 'get my way', manipulate, control, hide, etc...

All that's left is a feeling of peace and contentment. A surety of everything is fine and perfect.

Extremely hard for me to express what it actually is. But I certainly know it when I'm in it. 'In it' is actually a misnomer - it's more like 'I am it'.

LOL, the more I try to express it the worse it gets at actually getting it across.

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