I got a sympathy card from my in-laws yesterday. I asked H to thank them for the card, and he said "you can call them" and again I am struck by how he wants me to speak to them I think.
I have debated speaking to them over and over and over. Communication has broken down over the months of course and I guess they think I've said some ugly things, which, I just see how this stuff escalates and things come out all kinds of "wrong". You don't have the same ability to reach them the way you did before, and of course my H is filling their minds with the worst of the worst.
But they are good people generally and I have missed them. I would like to think they can speak to me, and visa versa. My H says things like "call them" and "they don't hate you", etc.
I almost think he is wanting me to. I have had that feeling over and over again...
Only thing right now, I just feel so sad. I will wait and see if it gets better this afternoon.
Meanwhile, it is such a beautiful day out. I got to walk the dogs and have done something nice for a new friend of mine that I have figured out is a "gifts girl".lol. (that is her LL). That is LAST on my list so I know almost nothing about what "gifts" people are like. I am so practical that buying things like teddy bears is just weird (that is what she gave me) but it was so sweet of her and this is the second gift she's given--other being a gorgeous cross necklace that I LOVE.
See, too, I am so "out of it" when it comes to the people that have gifts high on their LL that I don't know if this is something you do quite regularly--am I already "behind" because I just have never given her anything??
How often to the gift people want to receive gifts from their friends I guess is what I'm asking.
